Dieting is death
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Friday, September 25, 2009
6:28PM - intro,hi girls
Short term goal weight:160
Long term goal weight:110
Current eating disorder:EDNOS
How long have you had an eating disorder? 7 years
Saturday, March 10, 2007
5:11AM - Juicing
I didn't see anything against this on the userinfo, so I would like to promote my new community juicingjamboree (I figure it's weightloss relevant, some people would probably be interested in juicing). It's worth looking in to even if you've never heard of juicing before.
Sunday, March 4, 2007
12:26AM - just wonderin
Does anybody go to tickerfactory.com? I really love the website and it is great for when you are dieting and you are trying to aim towards a goal body weight. It really motivates me so I was just wondering what it does for you guys. I will talk to you later. I am so so so tired right now.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
7:02PM - Are you a calorie counter?
Do you count calories? Do you know any low calorie recipes? Would you like to learn some? Whats the best low cal snack? Join
apologies if community promotion isn't allowed here.
Friday, February 17, 2006
12:03PM - intro
Okay so first of all here are my stats:
Current Weight: 185.5
BMI: YES I JUST LOOKED IT UP AND IT DROPPED! 30.9. Now this may seem like obese... wait... it is, but it's a big feat for me.
Highest Weight: 199
Lowest weight: 182.5
Short Term Goal weight: 135 by June 20th
Long term goal weight: 100 by Jan 1st, 2007
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Thursday, July 14, 2005
12:19PM - Hey There
Short term goal weight:110
Long term goal weight:105
Current eating disorder:ana, mia... whatever works
How long have you had an eating disorder? tendencies for 2 years
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Sunday, May 8, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
join and post at were_not_hungry
its a community for support, and pictures.
you can ask questions, find tips, and find inspiration/support from the members.
Thursday, December 2, 2004
6:58PM - Eating Disorders Research
Hey everyone, Id like to introduce myself. My name is Lindsay and Im 22, a graduate from SUNY Fredonia. I will be going on to grad school in Fall 2005 and in the meantime I want to do some research. I will be going on to school for social work to study eating disorders. I am in the very early stages of putting together a lengthy survey that I plan to turn into a book (before I return to school).
This is where all of you come in. I would like to know if any of you would be interested in taking a survey such as this. It would be completely confidential (you would give only me personal info. for my record-keeping). This is going to be looked over by a lawyer before I send it out, so it will be very legit. The questions range from demographics (name, age, sex etc.)- personal data such as names would not be disclosed, to questions about your personal struggle, media influence, mental health background etc. I believe I am qualified to do research like this because I have struggled with an eating disorder for years, I feel like I have a non-judgemental outlook and the ability to ask questions that maybe haven't been asked before.
This is a rather non-personal email (sorry) that I intend to send to as many of these eating disorder based livejournal groups as possible. That is because I need help from all of YOU. If you are interested- email me
Please keep in mind that I am in the beginning stages and although I want to move the processes along quickly, it may take time before I am able to send the finalized survey out. If you email me, I will try my best to respond in a timely fashion and answer any questions you may have.
Thank you so much, Lindsay
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Hey girls. I have just created a new community for people with any eating disorder. You can do whatever you want there. Post thinspiration, share tips, whatever...please join. I want it to be a safe place for us all to go.
Monday, November 1, 2004
current weight: 114 lbs.
lowest weight (at this height): 103
hightest weight: 118
short term goal weight: 105
long term goal weight: 95
Hi, my name is Chelly. I'm new here. I'm not anorexic, I just have "anorexic tendencies", I suppose you could say I'm a "boderline anorexic". I'm pretty obsessive about it, but I have parents and friends and a wonderful, great boyfriend-- that watch me like a hawk whenever I eat (or don't eat). I get around it as best I can without worrying the people I care about. I know that it I lived alone, I would be anorexic (and very skinny), but I don't so I'm stuck like I am. I don't like feeling this way-- so paranoid about my weight. I wish I didn't have these "tendencies", and I try to fight it, but I just spiral into a self-loathing despair. :[
I joined this community, more to comment on everyone and to try to help everybody else, more than to get help myself, so I'll shut up, now.
Saturday, October 23, 2004
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Monday, October 18, 2004
After a long absence (since August..) I am back again..
I love certain portions of my life, I'm in school and I'm getting >100% in my EMT class, and 99.5% in my nursing class. I think I'm cute, but it doesn't change the fact that I hate hate hate my body. I feel like I've been binging the past few months, even though I'm still 120. I still don't eat as much as I should for someone my age, but I'm "recovered". I feel myself slipping back into the dark void that is ana. I turn to you guys once again--you are the only ones who understand. I don't do this voluntarily, despite the fact I know some do, and think I do. I try to force myself to eat, but all I see on my plate is a fat ass. All I see in the mirror is a fat ass. I can't do this anymore. I'm back, whether I want to be or not. Part of me wants to go into a recovery program, but I just can't do it. I can't admit that there's anything wrong, although I know there is.
Welcome back, ana.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
10:07AM - Hot Rox [x-posted]
Sorry if this has already been discussed.
Has anyone tried Hot Rox?
They're a new metabolism booster. I think you get them at GNC.
If you've tried them or heard anything about them please let me know.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
6:12PM - GRR
AH! I'm so irritated. I do 3-5 15min. sessions of aerobics a day. I can't do any longer than 15mins. b/c i'm out of shape and i don't get out of breath,but my calves get really tight and they get Charley horses.....BUT I was told that it doesn't do any good to exercise unless it for atleast 20-30mins. straight. THEN after that I start burning fat. I also walk for 2 hrs. a night(not just casually,I put some oomph into it),and I was told that doesn't burn fat either. So why do I even bother to exercise? what benefits am I getting from it?
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
2:54PM - *new member*
hi i'm new! my name is megan and i'm almost 16. i'm trying the diet thing..again. i'm not really "overweight" but i do want to lose weight so i look and feel better. i'm 5'10". i was wondering what the "ideal" weight for someone of that height would be, and anyway i could get to that weight. i have had symptoms of anorexia in the past but i've never really had the disorder. (if that makes sense?) any help would be appericated. =)
My breakfast usually consists of coffee, and LOTS of it. Maybe I should reconsider.
Long called the most important meal of the day, a new study confirms breakfast's top ranking. Researchers from Vermont's Rutland Regional Medical Center found that those who ate breakfast on a regular basis benefited in four important ways:
1. They had lower body-mass indexes.
2. Their risk of obesity and insulin resistance was reduced.
3. They maintained a better, long-term weight-loss success rate.
4. Their mental alertness increased throughout the day!
Researchers speculate that breakfast "wakes up" your metabolism, thus increasing the overall amount of energy—aka calories—you burn throughout the day. Make the most of your morning meal by including a little of everything—a protein source for long-lasting power, a complex carbohydrate for more immediate fuel, some dairy for strong bones, and fruit to add lots of vitamins. In fact, don't be afraid to make breakfast your biggest meal! After all, unlike those late-night snacks that end up turning into stored fat while you sleep, you have all day to burn off breakfast! How great is that?
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
7:13PM - hour 27
score. who would have thought i made it this far. tonight i even drove my brother to mcdonalds and didnt give in. tomorrow i am so looking forward to that apple and orange. haha. sad yes i know. we'll have to see though, maybe i can go without it but my jobs pretty active and i dont know if liquids can carry me throughout the days.
anyhow. 27 hours . yay me!
sorry for being so dorky guys. as i'm sure you've read before this is my first fast so it's something i'm proud of. and i'm sorry for posting SO much! haha.
keep it up girls!
1:08PM - so far so good
today has been super hard but in three hours i will have made 24 hours , which is quite the accomplishment for me. all i've been drinking is green tea and water so hopefully it'll do something.
lunch time was extremely hard with making lunch and not being able to eat any of it. i almost went for some tortilla chips but backed out last minute. yay! it shouldn't be that hard to hide for the rest of the day cause i'm going to school after work, and then my bfs. i'll tell him i picked something up earlier.
other than that, nothing is new. i know i'm going to have to break the fast one day this week when i go out to eat with my bf. so i'll get a salad. anyone have any reccommendations for salad dressing when eating out?
keep strong girls.
Sunday, June 20, 2004
9:55AM - Link
This link is kinda interesting. Put in your gw and it will tell you how many cals. you should eat if you want to lose weight.
Has some other diet stuff on it too.
[shoulda mentioned it's been x-posted]
Thursday, June 3, 2004
1:34AM - updated stats
Wednesday, June 2, 2004
3:44PM - PLEASE HELP!!!!
I was hospitalized for the first time on saturday. I went into the ER for asthma, but they did blood work, and about an hour later they carried out a bag of potassium, as I thought "oh fuck they know." They ended up keeping me in the ICU b/c of low blood pressure and a slightly weak heartbeat. They did a verbal probe of my eating habits once I got to my room, as I chowed down. I never want to be in there again..the potassium hurt so fucking bad. So, here's my question..
I gained like 5 pounds back when I was in there, and my color and everything has gotten better. I'm going to be going hardcore again since I'm back up to 125, so I want to know what kind of vitamins I should be taking, and I still want to have color and not look like a ghost. I have some, but if I had to have 2 bags of potassium, I don't think they're really working that well. Should I not use potassium supplemments in case of overdose, kinda like with Iron supplements? What kinds of vitamins do you guys use?
If you guys would leave me comments about it, I would appreciate it soooo much! Thanks!!!
Friday, May 28, 2004
Anybody know the cals and fat in a small one? I looked it up on the Mc Donald's website and it says with granola it has 160 cals and 2 grams of fat.
It just seems like it would be higher than that.
Sunday, May 23, 2004
The other day when my mom told me I just needed to restrict more? I guess she was just testing me. See, these past few weeks I've felt like she was calling me a heifer. This morning when I was getting ready I was wearing a tanktop and jeans, and she said "How about you wear something that covers up more?" I looked at her funny and asked her why, and she asked if I'd lost any weight. Then she went and got her tanktops and were suggesting them for me to wear. I went in my room and shut the door and just cried. I hate it when she sits there saying shit about me. I asked her later why she said that and she said "well what am I supposed to say, 'Gee you're looking kinda skinny?'" I just walked away while she said it. I didn't know how to come back to that.
Now that I think about it, we used to be about the same size (ouch, wearing the same size as my 50 year old mom), and when she tried to get me to try on her tanktop, maybe she was trying to make sure I had actually lost weight and it wasn't her imagination. I feel like she's been lying to me. She's been saying all of this shit to make me feel like the lowest creature on the planet, and it's b/c I've been losing weight. Heh, my boyfriend doesn't seem to mind at all. He used to tell me I didn't need to lose weight when I was a size 8, but now as I fit into a size 3 he's a lot more affectionate, and finds me more attractive. I wore my old track shorts the other day and he couldn't keep his eyes off of me. I don't know if he knows that something is going on or what.
Even though, I can't wait until he gets his new apartment. I told him that as soon as he got it I was moving in b/c I don't want to be here anymore. Sad, huh? I've lived here for less than a week since I moved out of the dorms, and I'm already found out and hating myself. It just pisses me off b/c my mom isn't straight forward with me. She sits here and asks me if my boyfriend and I have showered together to "save water" and if we hadn't we should try it! Ok you can't get much more open than that...But she can't say something, she has to worsen it by trying to use reverse psychology, and making me feel like a cow, making me eat less.
Heh, I accidentally blabbed the amount of weight that I've lost to my boyfriend this morning when I was crying about what my mom said about my weight and how she said I should cover myself up more...we'll see where this goes from here..he hates the fact that she's always been hard on me, no matter what I do. So, at least if he finds out, I can blame it on her influences and verbal jabs, and he'll understand and not think that I'm psycho.
I have so much shit to do tomorrow so I gotta go to bed...I'll keep you guys posted on my little situation =[
B/t/w I have an excellent picture of my ribs and hip bones, but I don't know what happened to the cord to upload them.
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Not a New community but I dont feel its publicized enough!
Just for you teenagers that are anorexic but feel like youre just not in the right spot cuz no one is your age! <3 xO
Hope you join! *Fara
Im sorry that this is a double post And X-Posted but its for your benefit! :( Thx
Hey Everyone....I am feeling ...."thinspired" lol Here is a beautiful Mischa Barton Friends Only Sign! No need to credit and I can customize it! <3
( Feel ThiN*Collapse )
Insanely x-PosTeD! SORRY xO.
Sunday, May 16, 2004
166 lbs today. down 3 lbs.
i should be happy, and yet i'm not. i'm not depressed or anything, not sad, but still...not happy. probably because i'm soo close to reaching my stg of 165, which i need to meet in 2 days. that means i have to lose 1/2 a pound each day. pretty doable, i think.
today marks the end of week 4. i've definitely had some relapses into coe and bulimia, but i lost 14 pounds in the past 4 weeks nonetheless.
i will reach my goals.
Saturday, May 15, 2004
My mum discovered a bin bag of food in my room today. She's "assuming" I've been starving myself. I feel like killing myself. We talked about it, and I denied it, but she came out with shit like "I'm gonna get you help, I'm gonna watch you eat all the time, I don't trust you so i'm going to make you eat more than you usually do, I can't believe your doing this to yourself" And there's me in tears, with a hangover, feeling like a dumb fuck for leaving that in my room, (even though it was hidden) damn her cleaning my room, she never does that, the last time she did she read my diary. I can't lie anymore, she's always going to keep an eye on me, always going to be on my back. I can't deal with this. I can't believe she knows about my ed, aswell as my self harm. I hate her, I hate myself. I hate everything.
Friday, May 14, 2004
i'm geeked! my three really good friends (who i hang out with ALL the time) commented on how i really did lose a lot of weight. (mostly from actually being healthy about it...with a couple water fasts thrown in...which, from all the evidence i've read really aren't all that bad for you.)
as a result? i now have 3 RL work out/dieting buddies. i figure that, as long as i hang out with them, i'll be able to work my goals!
the bad point of the night, however, was the slice of deep crust pizza my overly concerned guy friend made me eat. (honestly...he was my ride and told me, that, until i finish that effing piece of pizza, he would not drive me home.)
i want to do the SHD again, but, after last time, i'm sooo sick of that damned soup. i think i'm going to modify it so that i just stick to the 7 day eating plan w/o the soup...do y'all think that'd still work?
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Hey everyone! Just letting you guys know that I'm gonna be posting under analovesrugby instead of this one. Kinda risky, ya know? So, if you guys wanna add my new journal b/c I don't have any friends on there, I'll add ya back!!! =]
I lost half a pound today! Woo! lol
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
I'm pretty sure a few of my friends at work know that there's something up with me, but I know they can't and won't do anything about it. Hell, my manager almost encourages it, the way he said it looked like I'd lost weight, and the fact that he agreed when I said I have a ghetto booty for a skinny white girl. I'm pretty sure my mom knows too though..when I was at home this weekend I was making the Sacred Heart soup, and I told her what it was for and she just said ok and went about her business. No one can really do anything about it b/c I'm in college now.
I'm almost to my first goal and I didn't even know it!!! YES!!!!!!!! The last time I knew I was at my high weight =D
I wanna take it in little steps b/c I beat myself up easily when I fail, and I'm depressive and go the whole self-mutilation route, so I'm doing baby steps here.
I just started the Sacred Heart diet today, so I'll post back to let you all know how it's going!!
Sunday, May 9, 2004
just weighed myself! 124lbs! i've lost 7 lbs since the last time i was home (3 or 4 weeks ago, i think) not a TON of weight, but enough to make me happier!
i'm going to start the SHD again next week sometime. i think that's how i lost most of my weight. working out is helping, very slowly, me to loose weight, but mostly i'm just getting toned. i think that if i do the SHD again and lose another 5lbs, putting me to 119lbs, i will be able to handle that weight and lose the rest of it by eating healthier and working out. hopefully.
what do you guys all do, as far as working out? like what types of exercises do you do?
i do 45-50 mins. on the elliptical, 20-30 lifting weights (for my arms and back mostly), about 10mins of sprints, and 150+ crunches.
but i know its not good to keep on doing the same workout over and over again...so what other work out routines do y'all do?
Friday, May 7, 2004
11:17AM - New Site
I don't know if anyone is interested, but I have a new community salads4wtloss - Salads For Weight Loss.
It's not a diet per se, it's where you eat salads for dinner. Have whatever for breakfast and lunch.
I've lost nine pounds so far. Feel free to join if you wish.
SHD = YAY! lost weight...pants are now baggy, can see the 'skinny' bones. i'm happy.
finals week = BOO! ate some chips, felt TERRIBLE, don't have the time to work it off.
tomorrow/right now, water fasts are offically back on.
on a happier note, i tired on my bathing suit today and no, i don't look grossly obese and yes, i can be seen in public wearing it.
Tuesday, May 4, 2004
Monday, May 3, 2004
11:20AM - weighing in
175 this morning.
I am working on a low cal diet plan with my nutritionist and an exercise program, it is kickin major bootie! I had a rough weekend, I binged a lot, but I feel better today and am more on track.
How is everyone else doing?
Sunday, May 2, 2004
171 today. 4 pounds down from last week. 9 lbs in the past 2 weeks. :) I'm so ready for week 3!!
Saturday, May 1, 2004
10:58AM - hey...
i'm new too so i figured i would drop a quick post. this is the second lj i've created so i can post about all this weight business. right now i'm looking to lose 40 pounds but it's been really hard. i've never weighed this much, it all of a sudden came on with my new job i started in january.
i've been trying to eat healthier but went back to pruging after meals the past few weeks. i've also taken up running for exercise. i just need more discipline.
short term gw: 150
long term: 135ish.
so yeah. that's me in a nutshell. either today or tomorrow i'm starting that sacred heart diet so we'll see how that goes. i look forward to talking to you guys more.
best of luck!
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
started the sacred heart diet today. the soup's actually pretty good...and, on the upside...i told my roomies that it was just a veggie soup i wanted to try. and because there's so damned much of it they won't be suspicious when that's basically all i eat.
well, lets see how this works! :)
if i lose the 10-17 lbs they SAY you can lose on this, then...DAMN, i'll be one happy person!
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
hey, i just joined. my community posting habits are abominable, so i apologize in advance if i don't update as much as you want me too. :)
i just got done writing a lot in my lj, so i feel kind of burned out, but i'll give you my stats.
i have tons of mini goals. right now, i just want to weigh 165. 140 is my ultimate goal weight.
ummm, what else? i lost 5 pounds last week. i weighed 180 on april 18th. i have a long way to go though. :-/
This morning I weighed in at 175lbs. I started at 183 so my loss is 8lbs. I am prolly not as good as the rest, but I also lost an additional 6lbs that I had gained in the past two weeks, so in reality I lost 14lbs in two weeks, but my real progress was 8lbs.
How did everyone else do? I hope well!
Monday, April 26, 2004
hi guys, its me, china6.
i had to move all my ana/fasting communities to my private journal. too many of my friends know my other journal...not safe, especially since i basically collasped on sunday.
1:25PM - Competition
*CHEERS* I am back down to 180 that is a loss of 3lbs... And I am sorta fasting today so we will see about how much more I can drop.. I usually hit a plateau at 180 and stick there...Maybe this time will be different.
My new medications acctually suppresses the appitite, so my desire to buy medications to do the same thing has decreased... *CHEERS*
Well I hope everyone else is feeling as good as me... let the best chica win!
Friday, April 23, 2004
When I originally started my journal I said that I would put helpful hints and what not in here, as well as websites that were helpful to me, and we sorry I haven't kept up my part of the deal!
My all time favorite web site PRO ANA and PRO MIA is
bluedragonfly.org there is tons of great reading, and order a bracelet there, she makes beautiful ones!
I have read www.plagueangel.net/grotto/id2.html - this is sorta the ANA underground, good site, but I still totally love Bluedragonfly.org the most!
For a list of Pro ana sites: www.nationaldirectory.com/society/issues/H
An easy BMI formula from angelana.bravehost.com :
your weight multiplied by 704.7... then take that total and divide it by your height squared
the BMI scale:
< 15 - Emaciated
< 17.5 - Anorexic
<19 - Underweight
19-24 - Normal
25-29 - Overweight
>29 - Obese
here is mine for example :
weight : 187 X 704.7 = 131778.9 divided by my height squared
my height is 5'7 3/4"... = 5491
131778.9/5491= 23.9 - I am Overweight.
Isn't that sooo nice :( Oh well, I am sure I will like using it better when I weigh less!
Check out www.calorie-count.com to see how many calories you burn naturally throughout the day! Pretty useful info nice site!
And my second favorite web site of all is:
www.caloriecontrol.org... this site has tons of awesome healthy tips for weight loss... so if you are ana you may not like everything there, but if you are like me and trying to get a little help to get back on track it is truly a wonderful site...
both of these sites were referred to me by a friend and I am soooo thankful to have found them!
Well I hope I have been helpful to someone... there are enough links in all of these sites that I have listed to help someone find exactly what they are looking for, garaunteed!
Well, I just thought I'd update... As of today, I am 130 which is 5 pounds down from my original 135. I actually did it through healthy eating and exercise... 1200-1400 calories a day and exercised twice a day... I alternated between Advanced Pilates and Weightlifting, and 20 minute Pilates, Walking a mile, and major ab exercises. And I drank that tedious 64 oz. of water daily. heh... I have to admit I'm a litte surprised I lost that much the healthy way... :P
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